Most of us feel some sense of unease, unrest, ache inside of us. This ache is actually our soul bumping up against our own lack of readiness to change, to heal, to transform, to move into what is in store for us.

The ache you feel in your gut is the siren of truth announcing to you how much more is available to you. To you in your work. In your family. In your relationships. Community. Friendships. And most acutely, the gifts unique to you that you are here to give. The gifts that you alone contain. No one else. You. Singular. Once in a lifetime. Never before. Never again. You. And you have much to give. And we have much to receive. From you.

Honoring that ache is what we are here to do. And if we honor that sacred ache, things will change. And we will transform.

We are unpracticed at allowing, accepting and partnering with our transformation.

Why?

Often, it is our fear of the unknown that holds us back. We have survived our lives by listening and responding to fear. We have become wise and intelligent in our homes growing up by learning all the subtle rules and abiding by them as to not sustain serious injury. Physical. Emotional. And worse.

Now, as adults, the subtle rules are vastly different from those of our childhood’s and yet, often unconsciously, we are playing by these old rules. At our jobs. In our families. In our relationships. Friendships. Community. And as it relates to the life force living inside of us that longs to be expressed freely and unselfconsciously.

We have options.

We can suffer the ache. We can numb the pain of the ache through today’s highly available mechanisms of tech addiction, drugs of all kinds, alcohol, sex and porn addiction, avoidance, identifying as a victim, rationalizing why we can’t change, blaming the past and others, quietly nursing the fantasy that one day we’ll be rescued from this life or the change and transformation we’ve been longing for will just dawn on us like a good idea.

Or.

We can Grieve. Grow. And Give.

Grieve.

Grieve what?

Grieve so much! Grieve a childhood, no matter how good and supported and loving, has wounded you in powerful ways. Grieve the life that is asking you to change knowing full well that you will move through the threshold and be changed. And change is transformation. And change is scary for us. And change does come with loss. And it is this loss, perceived and real, that must be grieved to be able to move into the life that is aching for you.

Grow.

Grow what?

Grow your capacities. Grow your inner wisdom and reserves to support and sustain yourself as you transform. Grow your connections to wisdom and reserves outside of yourself and your ability to access them, ask for them, ADMIT that you need them! Grow your deep trust in yourself. Grow your embodied belief in the life changing gifts, world changing gifts, earth healing gifts that are UNIQUE to you, that will not be carried forth by anyone but you! Grow your ability to believe this and to then risk for this belief.

Give.

Give what?

Give your gifts! What if the rose refused its blossoming?! You must give. You get to give. You are here to give. All of nature is offering. You are not separate. And you are no less important to the ecosystem of all beings. You have gifts to give and you will become more and more practiced at giving them and working with the fear or embarrassment or doubt that comes up when your old stories start to bend your ear. You will gain momentum in your giving. You will begin to know yourself as a great forest of gifts and no need to withhold them.

And all of this is deeply known in us. Inside our bodies. In our bones. Deep within us. We have the knowing, the inkling, the belief that we are unique and that we have something to offer.

Its time we widen this path. The path of people knowing themselves to be whole and good and with great gifts to offer. And these great gifts will look as different as there are people on the earth. Some will be big and visible, some will be big and invisible, some will be quiet and powerful, some will be as subtle as the kinglets moving through the winter trees.

For what will happen for us, for our families, our communities, our nation, our land when we heal our pasts, identify our gifts, and give them boldly?

We become evermore what we are made of.

Love.

And our healing only deepens our access to our love. Our gifts are expressions of our love. And to offer our love more boldly in this world will only bring about beauty, joy, healing, permission, inspiration, invitation, connection, community, celebration, empowerment, and an ever unfolding flowering of love.

If you are in, or are calling in, Transformation, I’d like to work with you to:

• deeply honor who you’ve been, how you got here, and the bravery and intelligence it took to get here

• grieve and mourn the safety and comfort of the life and the relationships you have been living

• identify ties, cords, contracts, unfinished work that might be preventing you from the life you know is waiting for you

• identify and nurture relationships with allies, guides, teachers, friends, family, and communities to support you as you grow and transform

• clarify the vision, the shape, the smell, the color, the frequency, the radiance of what you are becoming

• articulate why your becoming, your transformation, is not just for you, but for the land, your family, your community, your ancestors and your descendants.

• see evermore clearly the vision of the world that you are here to bring forth

• prepare your land, self, family and community for your transformation

• offer gratitude, offerings, and gifts to the people, places, energies that have been supporting you in your journey

• share your story bravely to inspire others to trust and follow their own path towards transformation.

Through this 13 session process you will move from:

• stuck in old patterns and habits TO greater access to choices that are more aligned with your heart and soul

• a shame or a discontent for who you’ve been TO a massive appreciation and respect and awe for who you’ve been and how you’ve made it this far

• clinging to the knowns of the past (as unsatisfying as they may be) TO partnering with the unknown, with Transformation, with what your life has in store for you

• influenced and controlled by public opinion or people’s perception of you TO listening to and trusting your inner knowing regarding your life and the best way to live it

• feeling alone and isolated and unsupported TO developing and using internal support systems, accessing the healing power of nature, identifying and befriending your historical heroes (poets, mystics, ministers, teachers, revolutionaries)

• a lack of clarity of what you really want for your life TO a crystal clear image of what is already on its way for you, already coming for you, like starlight falling lightyears to find you

• the limited idea that your transformation only matters for you TO your transformation is being cheered on by all beings and is necessary, absolutely necessary, for the health and well being and radiance of your family, your community, your nation, even your landscape

• feeling disconnected, alone and isolated TO deeply knowing and feeling your relationship with all beings

• feelings of sadness, despair, anxiety, and fear TO brimming gratitude that cannot be contained

• isolating and hiding this time of your life TO sharing the fruits of it widely and bravely and unselfconsciously

We will work together using:

• Shadow Work principles and modalities

• Internal Family System frameworks

• Carl Jung’s Deep Psychology

• Bill Plotkin’s illumination of the soul

• Malidoma Some’s principles of ritual, healing and community

• Martin Prechtel’s guidance around grief

• Myths, stories, legends and lore

• Your Inner Wisdom

Transformation is not an event. Its a process.

Book a free, 30-minute call, to determine if this is the right fit, the right time, the right commitment to move towards the life you know is waiting for you.

$3120 — Thirteen 90-minutes sessions focused on you and your becoming and all the factors that can support your graceful dance with transformation so that you may heal your past, identify and embody your gifts, to clarify and magnetize your vision for the future.

Contact peter.p.mclean at gmail.com to talk scheduling. All sessions are between 9 AM and 5 PM Pacific Time and can be held in person or over zoom.